many times we really want something in out life, but that something is really hard to get, you pray, you cry, you beg but still you don’t get it. and when you giving up on every single even a bit a hope, you see a little light.
sometimes you think you did enough, you maintain the relationship, you think all people nice when they talked about something, made promise about something you really think they made it, but hey the don’t, people made lots of liar things, whole my life I’ve been disappointed with this things, yet I didn’t learn, still I believe people. I might start to wake up, being mean sometimes good.
I lost most of the people who kind and help me a lot, recently I lost my former supervisor, he’s the one who always been there whenever I need friend to talk, not that he’s not busy, but he always made time to listen, not many people will do that to me, well now that I think about none of the people will do that to me, its only him. he made time to listen to all my problems, answered, comfort and be there for me. my heart was broken to pieces when I learned that he passed away
I am scared, I am scare that they are right, that I was nobody, that I can not do anything, scared that I am stuck in this place. I know I don’t have anyone to support me I know no one, I only count on God, I always thing God is enough for me, I can just ask anything and He will make it happen for me, so dear God, can you please help me.